I started this journal in hopes that my life could help or inspire someone else. Enjoy!
Happy Birthday to Me!
I can’t believe how long it’s been since I’ve written. I feel like I haven’t had a lot of time to breathe lately let alone sit down and write in my journal ! I’ve missed it though and I‘ve appreciated all the wonderful e-mails encouraging me to keep writing. I read all of your e-mails even if I don’t always answer back every e-mail personally. Thank you so much I wish I could read all of your journals for inspiration!
These past two months I’ve been through so many changes! First of all I turned thirty! Can you believe it? Sounds so official doesn't it. Inside though I feel like like a kid with such a free spirit and open heart hopefully, though, I'm bit wiser. I think I'm aging backwards because in my teens and early twenties I felt so sad and heavy like the whole world was on my shoulders with constant worry. Everyday it seems like I'm feeling lighter and lighter.
I celebrated at the new Café Gratitude in San Rafael with some family, friends, and my wonderful boyfriend. I pretty much only order the same things at Café Gratitude, The I am Healthy green juice and the I am Fulfilled salad with Cesar dressing on the side. I took pictures of everybody’s food though for your pleasure. A big hit was the raw tiramisu and the mint chip shake. Everyone agreed that the tiramisu tasted like the real thing! My friend's purchased me the Café Gratitude recipe book, which I haven’t even gotten a chance to look at but I can’t wait to make some of the desserts for family and friends.
Before we went to Café Gratitude we celebrated my birthday by going to one of those pottery painting lounges where you paint a piece of pottery and they glaze and fire it for you. I painted a coaster for my boyfriend with a picture of the Golden Gate Bridge on it. You can see it on the left. My guy likes it which is all that matters I guess. It symbolizes him moving to California and finding love :)
Welcome to Petaluma: The Chicken Capital of the World!
Another change in my life is that I finally moved to another city. Just the next one over and I happen to live a few blocks from a really nice Whole Foods! I love it, I can get my two ounces of wheatgrass anytime. It’s such a plus to live so close to Whole Foods it really makes it easier to eat healthy and Trader Joes is not too far away either. Anyways I’m still not quite yet settled in my new place, hence the delay in journal writing, but I’m getting there.
I’ve also had to say good bye to two very special people in my life. One of them was my grandpa, he passed away in April. He was 92 and his health had been declining for the last few years. His body was so weak that he was ready to go for awhile. I’m really lucky that I got to say goodbye to him a few days before he passed. He wasn’t speaking but I touched his body gently and talked to him. For those of you that believe in auras, when I looked at his head I saw all this white gold light coming out of his head and eyes and I knew he was leaving us soon.
The next day I had a vision of thousands of white butterflies coming to take his spirit. It was a very beautiful image and left me with a feeling of peace I can’t explain and that I’ve never felt before. When I found out my grandfather passed I felt his presence so strongly as if his spirit had expanded to be everything and everywhere. I started to remember all the good times I had with him. I’m really lucky that the first 7 years of my life I lived with my grandparents, parents, and aunt and uncle under the same roof. Growing up with my grandparents was such a blessing. I also felt my Mom’s presence very strongly and that they were together again. I sensed that my grandfather was really happy now and that he was in a good safe place. It’s a feeling of peace I’ve never had before about anyone passing. When my mom died it was so sad and traumatic. I’m really thankful to my grandpa that he showed me that dying can be beautiful and peaceful. I also feel like he’s not really gone that I can talk to him anyplace at anytime. I even had a dream that he was healthy and strong again.
Now my attention is going to my grandma and appreciating the time left I have with her. I just saw the movie Click the other day with Adam Sandler. It starts out as a comedy but at the end it has a very important message that we shouldn’t fast forward through our life but rather we should cherish the moments we spend with friends and family for they can never be replaced. It was a very touching movie, especially for an Adam Sandler type movie, I did like him in Spanglish though:)
I also had to say goodbye to a dear friend of mine who is in an advanced stage of cancer, (too late for raw foods) and had to move to another state too live with her daughter. I miss her dearly for she was one of the most inspiring people I've met in my life. So truly kind, giving, and wise beyond measure. It was like she had a direct connection to the other side. I'm very confident that she's going home now.
With all the losses and all the changes I've been going through, I admit that I've found comfort in some cooked food. Nothing radical, just some steamed veggies, brown rice, and some sprouted grain bread. It was good for awhile because it comforted me through a difficult time but ten pounds later and not feeling as if I have as much energy as before I'm so ready to go back to my raw routine. Of course I never abandoned raw foods, that's a commitment I've made for life, but a little bit here and a little bit there and I just started to feel not as good as I used too. I wanted to share this because I wanted people to know that: One, no one is perfect. Two, even someone who's been mostly raw for five years can have their weak moments. Three, no matter what, you can always get back on track. I've seen people go off raw foods and totally abandon healthy eating all together! I want to get across that 100% raw isn't always the goal. The goal should be to eat as many fruits and vegetables as possible no matter what type of diet you're on. After all they are super healthy!
Changes at Raw Glow
Just a quick note to say there are some changes at raw glow. Please note my new address on my contact page. Also, now that I've moved cities I would like to connect with anyone interested in raw foods that lives in Petaluma, please shoot me an e-mail at: firstname.lastname@example.org.
Thanks for your patience with the journal, I'll try not to take so long next time:)
Hey everyone I wanted to share with you what I've been doing to inspire myself lately. I've been taking pictures of beautiful flowers and such like I always do and then writing inspirational quotes on them. I made the pictures into a screen saver so that I can look at them often. They remind me to keep thinking positive and to let the positive energy flow through me so that I can attract and be a vibrational match to joy and all the beautiful wonderful things I want in my life. The examples of the pictures I've taken are on the right. Anyway loves I encourage you to do what you need to do to find some inspiration in your life:)
P.S. Let Joy In!