I can’t believe how long it’s been since I’ve
written. I feel like I haven’t had a lot of time to breathe
lately let alone sit down and write in my journal ! I’ve missed
it though and I‘ve appreciated all the wonderful e-mails
encouraging me to keep writing. I read all of your e-mails even
if I don’t always answer back every e-mail personally. Thank you
so much I wish I could read all of your journals for
inspiration!
These past two months I’ve been through so many
changes! First of all I turned thirty! Can you believe it?
Sounds so official doesn't it. Inside though I feel like like
a kid with such a free spirit and open heart hopefully, though, I'm bit wiser. I think I'm aging backwards because in my teens and
early twenties I felt so sad and heavy like the whole world was on
my shoulders with constant worry. Everyday it seems like I'm
feeling lighter and lighter.
I celebrated at the new Café Gratitude in San
Rafael with some family, friends, and my wonderful boyfriend. I
pretty much only order the same things at Café Gratitude, The I
am Healthy green juice and the I am Fulfilled salad with Cesar
dressing on the side. I took pictures of everybody’s food though
for your pleasure. A big hit was the raw tiramisu and the mint
chip shake. Everyone agreed that the tiramisu tasted like the
real thing! My friend's purchased me the Café Gratitude recipe
book, which I haven’t even gotten a chance to look at but I
can’t wait to make some of the desserts for family and friends.
Before we went to Café Gratitude we celebrated
my birthday by going to one of those pottery painting lounges
where you paint a piece of pottery and they glaze and fire it
for you. I painted a coaster for my boyfriend with a picture of
the Golden Gate Bridge on it. You can see it on the left. My guy
likes it which is all that matters I guess. It symbolizes him
moving to California and finding love :)
Welcome to Petaluma: The Chicken Capital of
the World!
Another change in my life is that I finally
moved to another city. Just the next one over and I happen to
live a few blocks from a really nice Whole Foods! I love it, I
can get my two ounces of wheatgrass anytime. It’s such a plus to
live so close to Whole Foods it really makes it easier to eat
healthy and Trader Joes is not too far away either. Anyways I’m
still not quite yet settled in my new place, hence the delay in
journal writing, but I’m getting there.
Saying Goodbye
I’ve also had to say good bye to two very
special people in my life. One of them was my grandpa, he passed
away in April. He was 92 and his health had been declining for
the last few years. His body was so weak that he was ready to go
for awhile. I’m really lucky that I got to say goodbye to him a
few days before he passed. He wasn’t speaking but I touched his
body gently and talked to him. For those of you that believe in
auras, when I looked at his head I saw all this white gold light
coming out of his head and eyes and I knew he was leaving us
soon.
The next day I had a vision of thousands of
white butterflies coming to take his spirit. It was a very
beautiful image and left me with a feeling of peace I can’t
explain and that I’ve never felt before. When I found out my
grandfather passed I felt his presence so strongly as if his
spirit had expanded to be everything and everywhere. I started
to remember all the good times I had with him. I’m really lucky
that the first 7 years of my life I lived with my grandparents,
parents, and aunt and uncle under the same roof. Growing up
with my grandparents was such a blessing. I also felt my Mom’s
presence very strongly and that they were together again. I
sensed that my grandfather was really happy now and that he was
in a good safe place. It’s a feeling of peace I’ve never had
before about anyone passing. When my mom died it was so sad and
traumatic. I’m really thankful to my grandpa that he showed me
that dying can be beautiful and peaceful. I also feel like he’s
not really gone that I can talk to him anyplace at anytime. I
even had a dream that he was healthy and strong again.
Now my attention is going to my grandma and
appreciating the time left I have with her. I just saw the movie
Click the other day with Adam Sandler. It starts out as a comedy
but at the end it has a very important message that we shouldn’t
fast forward through our life but rather we should cherish the
moments we spend with friends and family for they can never be
replaced. It was a very touching movie, especially for an Adam
Sandler type movie, I did like him in Spanglish though:)
I also had to say goodbye to a dear friend of
mine who is in an advanced stage of cancer, (too late for raw
foods) and had to move to another state too live with her
daughter. I miss her dearly for she was one of the most
inspiring people I've met in my life. So truly kind, giving, and
wise beyond measure. It was like she had a direct connection to
the other side. I'm very confident that she's going home now.
Confessional:)
With all the losses and all the changes I've
been going through, I admit that I've found comfort in some
cooked food. Nothing radical, just some steamed veggies, brown
rice, and some sprouted grain bread. It was good for awhile
because it comforted me through a difficult time but ten pounds
later and not feeling as if I have as much energy as before I'm
so ready to go back to my raw routine. Of course I never
abandoned raw foods, that's a commitment I've made for life, but
a little bit here and a little bit there and I just started to
feel not as good as I used too. I wanted to share this because I
wanted people to know that: One, no one is perfect. Two, even
someone who's been mostly raw for five years can have their weak
moments. Three, no matter what, you can always get back on
track. I've seen people go off raw foods and totally abandon
healthy eating all together! I want to get across that 100% raw
isn't always the goal. The goal should be to eat as many fruits
and vegetables as possible no matter what type of diet you're
on. After all they are super healthy!
Changes at Raw Glow
Just a quick note to say there are some changes
at raw glow. Please note my new address on my
contact page.
Also, now that I've moved cities I would like to connect with
anyone interested in raw foods that lives in Petaluma, please
shoot me an e-mail at:
glowingraw-info@yahoo.com.
Thanks for your patience with the journal, I'll
try not to take so long next time:)
Little Inspiration
Hey everyone I wanted to share with you what
I've been doing to inspire myself lately. I've been taking
pictures of beautiful flowers and such like I always do and then
writing inspirational quotes on them. I made the pictures into a
screen saver so that I can look at them often. They remind me to
keep thinking positive and to let the positive energy flow
through me so that I can attract and be a vibrational match to
joy and all the beautiful wonderful things I want in my life.
The examples of the pictures I've taken are on the right. Anyway
loves I encourage you to do what you need to do to find some
inspiration in your life:)
P.S. Let Joy In!
